okay i am back again to make another yet juicy and eventful day's entry. so let us start from the beginning... i agreed to meet my friend to go and have a look at her company. all along i thought that the company was personally set up by her but it turned out to be another person's company. but its alright to me since i thought that was still okay and that any thing that i could manage to pick up and learn from would be really nice. i met up with my friend at raffles place mrt station and we went down although she was late for quite a few minutes, i waited patiently while skimming through my chinese novel. one thing to be glad for was she said that i knew how to package myself well and that i had transformed quite a bit plus my nice looking nails. that made my day.. thanks so we headed down to the company earlier as she suggested me of meeting several other people before the program starts. this company is being set up in shenton way. the idea alone was quite cool and i thought 'okay, why not just give it a try?' hmm... actually i shook hands with a lot of people and i can't recollect how many people i have actually shook hands with. except for some distinct ones and those that i have conversated with for a longer time. actually i told some of you guys some of the happenings but i am kind of pricked by my guilty conscience by spouting some bad crap about certain people... so sorry! okay.. enough about the nonsense.. but i actually feel better by confiding here.. the stuff that the people talked about the job itself seemed quite attractive and i was overwhelmed by the fact that a lot of the people there are teenagers like myself so it was real great to see their determination and maturity in working. but i am really sorry to say i am not determined to do this and that i do not have enough capital plus all the sorting out. so i would first like to say sorry to joyce first and foremost (although you said that it was okay) that i am sorry to have wasted your time but i appreciate your effort.. hope that your suggestion of you, me and phoebe going to paris to carve out our own niche together is for real. although it seems like a faraway dream and we might not be going to do the same thing, lets work hard together and achieve our dreams! hee! great little ambition set up by three girls, right? which brings me to the point that i might not have the wish to study german already.. after rational thinking, i want to learn french more. great right? if i master french as well, i will know english, chinese, japanese and french already! cool~ makes me more excited than ever. okay! the crux and the topping on the cake! i met a guy yesterday that really "electrified" (dian dao wo) me. first his life story. its not a very glamourous one and a slightly bitter story to me. but i admire him because although he is 17, but his thinking is already much more matured than those of his peers and even some that are more senior than him in age. he comes from a single parent family where he is now residing with his mum and his siblings. boils down to the fact that he will be the major and sole breadwinner in the future. actually he looks real good looking in my opinion as well as very absolutely good looking in terms of his character and the outlook of his life too. actually you guys may claim that i have taken a liking for this fu hao guy but more so that i am admiring him for his strengths that i may lack at certain times. so its more of respect similarly.
and now his rank is going to reach that of a manager's so its real great and shows that he is real determined in being a mature and responsible young adult. in fact i feel proud if i was in his mother's shoes. but conversely, i feel that his father is extremely selfish in leaving the entire family solely to his mother. that sucks right? WHAT A MAN! sorry guys and fu hua, i can't help feeling this way.
but fu hao, (although you might not see this post) i admire you for having this cheery outlook on your life.
haha... maybe it might be true that i have indeed fallen for a guy within such a short time but honestly speaking i have never met such guy that is above average in looks, responsible, mature, ambitous in a way and cute within a unique way. that really made my day although i was kinda stressed when talking to him as i was struggling to stay calm. thank god for blessing me with a face that does not turn red that easily if not everytime that he looks at me in the eye, i would give it all away just by my indicator (my face that is). struggling to sit real straight and stay calm, struggling to remain relaxed, struggling to look away at times without being rude. so i went home real exhausted as it was extremely hard for me to achieve all this while monitoring his every action. and yup, the voltage was a little too high! :P
he always stares at me in the eye or either just look at me straight. kind of scary to me and in the middle he will crack certain jokes and laugh in a boyish manner that i just find cute. some of the lingos that he uses are also quite unique. sat there and conversated while he was explaining the terms to me for around 2 hours. kind of considered as an achievement to be tolerating all the while.
*ya guys.. i know its really a lot for events to happen within an extremely short period but there are still a lot of things that happened too and this is the main part that i would like to say... add in the sub parts maybe sometime later.* he has hit me in my soft part and left me helpless.. which makes me wonder about the truth whether i have really liked him or is it liking for his strong character. he is not really rhe type i am looking.. more of a boyish guy to me. which reminds me that he is not really those type that i may be looking for.. but who knows for him, i would change my criterias? enough said, this might be day dreaming on my wishful part so let me indulge in my own dreams and never come out of the wonderful fairyland that all started when i first met him... okay , thats all for now. wrote a lot and am not sure whether you guys will be able to digest the information down thorughly.. write a sequel to this entry real soon! adios~
