Saturday, January 28, 2006
yo guys. today is the first day of chinese new year. although i feel kinda indifferent to it, but still i wanna wish everyone a happy new year! hope ayu's dogs (chihuahuas and more) will be happy when visiting her during her photoshoots and all. cool yea? but still i have my cute BB at home to accompany me.
Very very important mission to be fulfilling now. (miss)understood of ayu! okies. this is her 8th official album~ with the lyrics all penned by herself. can you do it??? i don't think anyone can easily do it! i think i might have a miserable chance of penning my own lyrics. but nah, i am still lazy now!
this is an uber cool album. how so? you would definitely ask. then i'll say without giving you a chance to think. 16 clips (inclusive if MVs and making-of clips) in DVD format. one photoalbum thats enough to blow you away. and a fabulous audio disc that contains 16 great songs! cool yea? anyone need promoters for ayu's album? i will be more than glad to help. but remember the salary, kay?? still kinda hard up~
i'm lovin the album. but i think it will still take sometime before it fully grows on me! current favourite is still MY STORY album. bought it only like 10 days ago... hehe! good new year gift from ayu indeed. great to see her CMs on tv now! buy her album if you wanna get to know more of her. don't borrow it from me. i'm exceptionally selfish when it comes to such stuff. hee!
her photoalbum also portrays her in bikini. great bod! i still have the fats to cut away on in order to get my perfect bod. cool yea? but obviously my lazy self would have to go!
will bombard my blog with ayu stuff.. otanoshimini! (please look forward to it orh! "p)
6:30 PM
Monday, January 23, 2006
yeapz! i am fine now... ya noe... peeps do have some mood swings at times! cos i'm human.. no probs. come near me now.. i won't bite. promise!
okies... and so today (24/1/06) marks yet another phase of my life! i have just gotten my contacts and am wearing it now. everything looks so new to me. so i'm testing everything i can!
but one problem is everything looks so huge now. when i asked the optician, she told me it was my glasses that made everything smaller. what i am seeing now is what i should be seeing... Grief gripped me. lo and behold, little did i know that i was living in deception all along. my feet look quite big now and i having certain queer thoughts. won't i fear roaches more in the future since they are bigger (in what i can see) now??? yikes.
sok wan, that female optician was quite good towards me. she encouraged me and advised what i should be doing. but one sad thing is, she looked kinda bigger in size and her head looked somewhat bigger than ever when i put on my lenses. not only that, i am sitting quite some distance from the computer as the screen looks enormous now. She gave me a bottle of cleaning solution too! no need to pay. sok wan, not like what you said lah. she didn't force me to buy additional stuff. hmm... thats about it... nothing much happened except me bumping something off that was on display. not entirely my fault. i stuffed my glasses and stuff into my bag and strolled into a shop. there was a lady bending over to choose hair clips. i walked for i while and my eyes could not adapt that well to the lenses. i left by the side where the lady was. her butt was inching towards me. of course i had to siam a little. then my fat bag bumped into something. luckily it was not glass but the item was very much dismantled by the fall. i picked it up and just put it back and walked away. haiz... not really my fault. really~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
11:21 PM
Thursday, January 19, 2006
i was thinking of blogging about ayu's new album. but i must say that something else is more pressing. i am darn pissed right now. mixed feelings rioting within me. i feel anger, annoyance, grief, stress all at the same time. have been sobbing alone for some time. (no need to say you feel sorry for me.. i don't go for such stuff especially when i am pissed right now)
my eyes are all blood shot now. i think it is because of the build up of stress within me. i don't wish to talk about details now. not even my parents know what i am sobbing about. i think even my heartless brothers wouldn't even give a damn about my affairs. i was sniffing away while poring over my economics textbook and he was sitting there on his MSN. when it was finally ten, i could tolerate no more. i just told him "eh. it's ten." den he started slamming stuff and finally lifted his butt while glaring at me...
sorry if the details are not complete. tears keep flowing out now.. i don't even know what is it that i am really crying my heart out for. i remembered the last time i cried was when my first pet bird left me. that was months ago and i have suppressed my feelings very well. i don't like crying. it is for the weak. and why have i turned weak all so suddenly? ironic thing indeed. haters of mine will have another thing to gloat about. let me applaud you lowly beings for that. with my heart bleeding and my tears drying up, you guys won't have a better time because i am building a heart of stone.
please. can't you see the reason that i am using the computer for?? its mainly for research. and you guys are like fussing over not being able to play your online games??? don't make the readers of this blog laugh. my mum has bred you guys up for gaming.. good! why don't you win the gaming awards since your life is only but a foundation of games?
I WAS SO FOOLISH TO BE FORKING A LUMPY SUM TO BUY THIS COMPUTER. in the end? plain foolishness on my part to be 'encouraging' them to play. i can't even have the chance to play, so research is even more out of the question. i was even that polite to be asking for permission to use the computer. what was the reply? "oh ok.. let us use first 'kay?"
then i said yes and requested to use the computer at an earlier time slot. but till eight thirty at night, i was still waiting like a dumbass. a dumbass! pestered by the fact that i am still waiting, i asked him and the reply was 'ten'.
it was then that i felt so tired... i sobbed quietly in the toilet. all i needed was the computer for research. my grades, is only a grain of sand compared to their daily doses of games.. and what do i see them playing? maple story. what a friggin funny reason! and i asked very politely. i still did not get to use the computer earlier. instead, all i was was heartless glares when this brother of mine had to leave the computer. that is why i want a personal computer to myself. why do i have to put myself through all the suffering just to get glares and a few hours of researching on the net.
i just realised that complaining on this entry does not help to alleviate the pain i have presently. it saddens me to hear that all this siblings thingy is faux. i did not demand for the computer. and i waited for 5 hours straight. and this darn computer is not producing any results after all my researching. been crying for more than one hour.
not in the mood to continue.. so just shut up and let me be in peace.
6:15 AM
