Friday, September 01, 2006
the current me? i would say that i am unsure as to what exactly i am going to do next. maybe i have sold my soul to youtube.. have been sitting in front of the computer screen watching.. boy, i really must limit myself.
apart from doing household chores nowadays, its like work and cca. can't say i sold my soul to the devils but i must grab my stand soon... been feeling lazy every now and then... you know something? the only satisfaction comes when my famiy members gobble down the food i cooked. hey no kidding.. pay me and i'll cook for you... but no charges for my family though..
i think the partial me was blinded by some stress that came from my surroundings.. how do you say it? i think it is due to the fact that i can't be doing what i can be doing. not that i dislike doing all the household chores, its more like having my wings clipped. i can't express it better than this sentence. the only time i can have to myself is sadly when i am alone at night. i appreciate the short break that i dedicate to myself... doing the things i want, following my heart to anywhere in the world...
hmm... currently hyde's 'cape of storms' is playing through the speakers.. i have a deep feeling that the song is echoeing my current self. have i lost myself? maybe yeah, but i will get myself back asap. i promise. this is a promise i make to myself... maybe it is due to the fact that i haven't been true to myself...
nothing much... just a random post to talk to myself.. don't read too much into it
10:08 AM
