right after the exams, ami seemed to have disappeared from the public eye. doesn't it seem like it?
yeap, quite a bit of matters have happened. I disclosed this matter to some people who seemed to come close to topics regarding part-time jobs. and so i felt it was better to verify it personally.
i received a call on yesterday morning from Mdm Huang, a mother of two kids whom I have been tutoring for 1yr and 3 months. just as i saw the caller id, i sort of had a mental preparation of what was about to come. in fact, i had a premonition of this issue befalling me when i cancelled a slot to celebrate my brother's birthday. nah, i'm not putting the blame on anyone but chiefly on myself.
so i steadied my voice such that the sleepiness would not show. i listened quietly to the mother as she stated her point of stopping the tuition since i was always falling ill and cancelling slots. she was worried about her kids' results. so i guess you could say that i was 'fired'. (bitter laugh) i lay in bed after putting down the phone at my bed stand, more of like dumbfounded than sad. i kept asking myself, 'am i always taking things too easily?', 'do people find me undependable?' and 'why am i always so nonchalant in issues?' Seriously, i couldn't find an absolute answer but figured out that i must change and work towards the answer anyways.
after that, i steadied myself and got up from bed to settle jobs. things went well primarily because i felt there were other options open still. i just had to priortise job offers. man, today's supposed to be tuition at their place. i kinda feel a little empty when i was not able to say goodbye to the kids before disappearing in their lives.
and so, yea.. 7 Flowers and Dragon, i'm sorry that I am suddenly free on wednesday evening, from 6. but if you guys dont mind, i could afford two hours, say 4 till 6pm, on tuesday afternoon. thats as much time i could fork out on tuesday. i really do cherish meetings. so i'll fork out time when its within my means. so please pardon me on this matter, i did not do things haphazardly without caring a hoot about our meeting. sorry!
please...? ami seriously has everyday filled up with work obligations. i hope you can understand. I hope i can proudly hand the first official house allowance to my mum soon (laughs). so wish me good luck, ne? ^^
